came home today. sucks. or rather, not being so relaxed and carefree sucks. a lot.

but i did get to see dan for a little bit. when he left i was like... *Smile!*
lol. he wants to see me on wednesday. he's busy tomorrow, which is okay, because i might be as well. depends if they want me to come in to work or not. can't come in for the time they have me set for though(as per usual, it seems). *shrug* that was the last straw for that. quitting there as soon as i have a new job. hopefully with the place i just applied at on friday.

*sigh*
but, anyways... i guess he's busy till 4. but i'm busy in the evening(work). haha, of course. and he said, maybe after that. soooo, sleepover, i'm thinking? haha hopefully at my place. i would not like to get up for my 9:00 class the next day without showering.
and, hopefully thurs is not a guys night. cause he wants me to go out as well.... so... yeah...
haha, this boy is really taken by me.
he was the one that said, 'i'm really busy these days' or something along those lines, hinting that we can't see eachother all the time or even very much. to that, i simply said, i am too. i think this boy was trying to say he wasn't sure if he had enough time for a girlfriend. seems as though he does. or he's making time for me. i think that's more likely..
i know he likes me cause of that. he's actually wanting to see me, unlike the last few boys.
and he's actually a LOT more in my league. he's of equal attractiveness to me, and yet I see him as the hottest male i've ever kissed, much less a lot hotter than those i've dated.
incredibly attractive to me, yet of equal general attractiveness. wierd, i know. but it's true. i am beautiful. he thinks i'm beautiful. he's told me so.
in bed, my hair all messed, my mascara all smudged under my eyes. i'm even more beautiful to him... somehow, at my worst, he still likes me.
if i had long hair, he'd have been holding it back as i puked. he held me up, fed me water. sat with my sick, pathetic, drunk self when he could have been in the club, dancing. he got 'my' purse for me. he carried me home. took me to his place. put me to bed.

haha, oh the irony. this all started with us over a puking-drunk, male friend!

*sigh*
i don't even know how he could have kissed me the next day or days after that. but somehow he did.

and now we've made love. truely, passionately. heat. kiss. hips.
O

and he still worries..

well, we do have some things to resolve.. and some shopping to do.

oh! i must do some grocery shopping tomorrow. definitely very important. as well as calling work about not being able to come in till 6-ish. and printing off some psych notes for that girl in class... library, wallyworld, home phone. and classes. must be on time for classes.
live model again, i think.

hmm....
maybe it'll be a guy...
that'd be nice.


haha.
and preferably an attractive one. that way i can study, draw, and gawk at at the same time! hehe


anyways. finish typing. then plan day. then sleep. *nod*