text sex.
who knew it could be so fucking amazing....

but. damn. why does it have to be with him...

ben...

why do i have to crave and need sex right now. why the fuck...
i can't have it with alex for a while.. and if i did it with ben as i so fucking want to right now, i'd feel bad if i then went and dated alex....
fuck.
this is a royal mess, now isnt' it..

at least it's down to 2 instead of 4

ben and alex

both pros and cons. both could fuck me as i want to be and haven't been in so long.. since cody..
since just under a fucking year ago. and i'm sure that it's been about a year(if not slightly over one) since i've thoroughly enjoyed a good fucking...

i never knew the difference untill lately...

brendon nearly fucked me. tried his hardest after i had my kitty cat costume on for him... but, no. he kinda sucked anyways... said i was good one time then was telling me not to use some of the tricks i'd used the first time when it came to the second time... didn't make me want to do that much more again.. ugh..



but serioously,

fuck.


i mean FUCK.

i need sex. now. to be fucked. made love to roughly. given it to sexually.

just about anyone would do right now. I'd take dan for f*ck sake. yeah, dan. but that might be wayyy too awkward.

yeah, no...
if anything, i'd drive down to weyburn tonight... i wouldn't, but fuck do i ever want to...




ok. so. text sexing with ben. talking to dan. and writing my sculpture thing.

yeah, no. one of those things isn't being done...
you prolly guessed right at which one that was...