ben and i kissed.
nothing more.
well, the next night we cuddled.

christine(his ex) also kissed him that night
no wonder he was hesitant with me.
she's given him hope

so i told him not to worry about us. if there is/was an us.
and we're to be friends for now.
who knows if we'll ever be more...

oh well...

so, last night i asked cory if he wanted to come to the br with some people i know.
well, it went more like this(through texting and after a bit of another covo w/him)
you doing anything on thursday night?
nothing important. what do you need?
i don't need anything, i was just wondering if you wanted to go to ***'s on thursday night with me and some of my friends.
sure.
cool(or sweet.. not sure which). well i guess i'll see ya in class on thrus if i don't talk to you before then.
later
yup. later.

or something along those lines. lol oh my. i was soooo nervous waiting for him to reply to me when i asked him... soooo hopefully he comes out. cause that'd be frickin awesome.


i chose to ask him and not mikey...

i did meet mikey on monday night. hung out with him n my sis. we did make out. nothing more tho. the hug right when i met him helped i htink. were supposed to hang out tuesday night, but i was sick all tuesday and he didn't wanna get sick too... hasn't texted me at all today... if he doesn't tomorrow or anything, i'll be assuming he's lost interest... which would suck if there's nothing with me and cory....


oh well....


anywho.

friday night, sleepover with liz. she's never been to one and she's 16!!! crazy. anyways, so that should be insanely fun(and wierd).. lol



been doing a lot of thinking. and discovering..

saw cody again actually the night i kissed ben. first time seeing him since.... well, since the last time i saw him before we broke up....
wierd..
awkward...
but...


alright..


just very very wierd. he's such a personality... and not seeing him in the context of being with me is very odd... especially when he's dating shanel now..


oh well... just glad i'm dealing with stuff now. alls i haveta do is give brendon his sweater back...
heh... he's the one unresolved boy... no doubt about that though... definite reasons for that.




k. sleep time. must get my butt to sleep.
*nod*
finally.

and hopefully i don't get sick again cause i'm up so late... ugh. that'd suck. a lot.